The pull you couldn’t resist
You see him.
And your breath shortens for a second.
There is a pull
so strong
you can barely resist it.
Something inside you whispers:
No… this can’t be.
But the pull is stronger.
So you stop resisting.
—
You meet him.
Once.
Twice.
And the feeling grows.
You listen to his voice
as he tells you
how happy he is to have found you.
He speaks about the future
after the first date.
And it’s exactly
what you’ve always wanted to hear.
—
You start to float.
You think:
This is him.
I found him.
He says everything
that matches your idea of love.
You want to be seen.
To be chosen.
To be acknowledged.
And he gives you exactly that -
through his words.
Read that again.
Through his words.
Not his actions.
—
But you don’t see that.
Not now.
The hormones are too loud.
The feeling is too strong.
So you go deeper.
More dates.
More connection.
You feel the passion.
Something you’ve never felt before.
—
He promises more.
He speaks about himself
as the man you always imagined.
Strong voice.
Strong presence.
He knows what he wants.
He feels protective.
Yes - feels.
—
And the little girl inside you whispers:
Finally.
The man who will protect me.
Because once,
as a little girl,
you were not protected.
Maybe you were neglected.
Maybe you were left.
—
But now…
Now he is here.
Confident.
Attractive.
Certain.
And you jump.
Because the pull is too strong
to say no.
—
Even though
that quiet feeling inside you
never fully disappears.
The one that tries to warn you.
But you ignore it.
—
You open your heart.
You give your trust.
You step fully into it.
And that…
is all he needed.
—
Now you’re in.
Now you love.
—
But slowly
something shifts.
What he said in the beginning
comes less.
Or not at all.
His promises
never turn into actions.
They just… stay in the air.
—
But you don’t want to see it.
You don’t want to accept it.
Because the little girl inside you
is already holding on.
—
So you close your eyes
and stay.
—
Emotional absence.
Gaslighting.
Disrespect.
Blame.
And still - you fight.
Because you believe
this is love.
You believe
you are the reason
he changed.
—
So you give more.
And more.
And more.
Trying to become enough.
—
But he shows you again and again:
You are not enough.
—
Until one day
he leaves.
—
And the pain
is unbearable.
Because you think
your heart is broken.
—
You loved him.
Didn’t you?
—
Or…
did the little girl in you
learn long ago
that love has to hurt?
That you have to fight for it.
Prove yourself.
Give more.
And still -
be left in the end.
Just like before.
—
He was not available.
Not to your tears.
Not to your pain.
Just like your father once wasn’t.
—
But what if I tell you:
This was not love.
—
The anxiety.
The waiting.
The attachment.
This is often
not love.
This is an unresolved experience.
A karmic lesson.
—
Not because it’s wrong.
But because it activates
what is already inside you:
Old wounds.
A sense of lack.
Fear of loss.
The need to be chosen.
—
These connections often:
start fast
feel intense
raise questions
swing between
“this feels amazing”
and
“this hurts deeply”
—
And it hurts
because something inside you
was never fully felt before.
Something you had to suppress
when you were little.
Now it comes back.
Not to destroy you.
But to be felt.
To be seen.
To be released.
—
So hold her.
That little girl inside you.
She is not too much.
She is just waiting
for your attention.
Your love.
Your presence.
—
Be with your pain.
Cry.
Let it move through you.
—
Because if you don’t take care of her
these patterns will repeat.
Again.
And again.
—
You will call them “toxic”.
But they were never toxic.
They came
to show you
what is not yours anymore.
—
And when you let that go…
When you truly meet yourself…
When you love yourself
without conditions…
—
Life will bring you
a different kind of love.
—
Quiet.
—
Without tension.
Without fighting.
Without constantly wondering
what will happen next.
—
You won’t feel the need
to prove anything.
You won’t fight for attention.
You won’t be afraid
to lose it.
—
There will be peace.
—
It won’t come like an explosion.
It will come quietly.
But it will come.
—
For now…
just don’t turn away from what you feel.
—
And you will get through this.
I know you will.
—
You are worthy.
You are loved.