When your energy runs out

There comes a moment
when everything stops.

You hit the ground.

They call it burnout.

But what it really feels like…

is being thrown out
of a life
you once called yours.

One moment
you are moving fast.

Busy.
Focused.
Defined.

Your days are full.
Your mind is occupied.
Your identity is clear.

And then…

silence.

No noise anymore.

Just you.

And the stillness.

It feels
as if someone
has thrown you
out of a train

one that was rushing
at full speed.

And now…

you are no longer in it.

You hit the ground.

And it feels like death.

Not your body.

But something in you
has stopped.

And the emptiness…

it feels unbearable.

And yet,
you don’t even have
the energy
to jump back in.

So you lie there.

Exhausted.
Broken.
Empty.

You start looking for help.

You listen.
You read.
You search.

And everywhere you hear:

“Do what you love.”
“Do what feels good.”

And this…

this is where
it becomes even harder.

Because you don’t know anymore.

What you love.
What feels good.
What you even want.

You try to think.

But nothing comes.

Because it has been
so long

since you did something
for yourself.

So long
since you listened inward.

You were always focused
on achieving.

On pushing.

Even when you couldn’t anymore.

So now…

there is nothing.

And the more you try
to figure it out

the worse it feels.

So stop.

For a moment…

stop.

Don’t force
what is already there.

Because it doesn’t need
to be created.

It needs
your attention.

Inwards.

You don’t have to do
what the world expects anymore.

You already did that.

And look
where it brought you.

So don’t force it again.

A flower
takes time
to open.

Before the sun rises,
there is the moon.

And just like that…

you don’t have to do
anything right now.

You don’t need to know.

You are allowed
to simply be.

I know…

you don’t remember
how that feels.

But you don’t need
to remember.

Just stay.

With the emptiness.
With the stillness.

Breathe.

Feel.

Day by day.

And slowly…

something begins
to return.

Not big.

Small.

A quiet impulse.

Maybe
you want to cook something.

Maybe
you go for a short walk.

Maybe
you watch something
you used to love.

Maybe
you open that book
you never had time for.

Now…

you have time.

And no…

the world out there
will not collapse
without you.

You are allowed
to rest.

Without guilt.

You are allowed
to say no.

And yes
to yourself.

Step by step…

like a newborn
learning to move again

you return.

Not to the old life.

But to your life.

The one
that was never about
expectations.

The one
that is yours.

You learn to trust again.

Your body.
Life itself.

It has always been
taking care of you.

You just didn’t want
to let go of control.

So you had to reach
this point.

To finally let go.

And begin again.

This time…

without pressure.

With compassion
for yourself.

Step by step…

you learn to live again.

To feel again.

To enjoy again.

To love yourself again.

Because everything
was always there.

You just forgot.

So what if…

this moment
where you don’t know
what you love

is not a problem?

What if
it is the beginning
of something

far greater
than anything
you have achieved before?

What if
this is the first time
you are truly given
the chance
to live your life?

And what if…

exactly as you are right now

empty
tired
exhausted
sad
broken

you are
completely right?

Don’t be afraid.

Practice acceptance.

Tell yourself:

It is okay
to feel this way.

It is okay
not to know.

It is okay
not to feel joy.

It is okay.

I am.

That’s it.

And from here…

a journey begins.

One
you never imagined.

And along the way

you will begin to see:

what you truly love
was always close.

Quietly waiting

for you
to return.

And what if…

it doesn’t have to be big?

What if
it is simply
the silence of your morning

your coffee

and a joy
as pure
as a child’s?

Because now…

you are allowed.

This is not the end.

This is the beginning
of timelessness.

You are held.

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